the brainwaves ..

GOD ..the topic i had numerous brainwaves on ..

when i was a baccha dhadhi used to tell me ..ganapathi bappa ki dandam peetuko ..i used to do it deligently without asking why (of course i would be wondering whats for prasad) ..but who is god?? ..then some one told me god made the world, you, me, the people and everything living thing ..dhadhi ganga river?? (for me ..ganga was the biggest river ..felt it was obvious as it comes from shivji's head :D )  ..dhadhi: god created it ..he decides everything ..amma i got 90% ..amma: pray to god that you should get 95% ..prayed ..then amma 95% ..amma: see god gave ..woah!! ..ganapathi bappa rocks!! ..

then came big bang ..concept of evolution ..darwin ..copulation ..adaptation ..einstein ..what not ..realised there are very small things which have even smaller things to revolve around them ..these things inspite being so small are the whole universe literally ..and these things can be controlled by a human ..oh ..how come this is possible?? ..man playing around with the creator's building blocks?? ..i was quick to conclude ..god doesnt exist ..

then came another brain wave ..why in the first place did people think of a concept called 'god'?? ..because if there is someone you are answerable to then you wont do wrong things ..because you need some control some discipline ..something which you can hope will help you go through your bad times ..or maybe a monkeyboy asked his father who put the sun there?? ..and his father not to let him down must ve replied 'god' ..so it was clear ..you needed the concept 'god' to have some control in your life ..god will punish me if i do this ..so what if you think ..this is wrong ..it causes harm to so and so ..so i wont do it ..there isnt a 'god' in the frame ..you are in control of your life and you are answerable to yourself ..when in trouble there are always our loved ones to look up to ..so again ..there is no need for god to exist ..

thats fine ..but how does that explain the monkeyboy's question?? ..einstein in his theory of relativity told ..beta forget distance ..forget time ..forget mass ..catch hold of speed of light ..voh fix kar ..tera har problem solved ..this gave me another brainwave ..what if god isnt a person ..isnt what we conventionally think is?? ..isnt a guy or a gal sitting in the heavens and watching over ..but instead is like a force ..or a blast of neutrinos ..energy ..force or energy which make things happen the way they happen ..that make the electons go around protons ..that makes the earth go around the sun ..that make the cells to function ..that gives or takes a life ..the 'thing' (couldnt think of a better replacement) that keeps things gng as they should ..but theres a glitch ..it sounds kind of weird when you say 'may the force be with you' (no ..im not talking about not star wars)..or 'may the energy help you through this and forgive your sins' ..maybe thats why god is a guy or a gal sitting up there somewhere ..

thoda clarity tho mila gaya ..now im comfortable with that idea (atleast until the next brain wave) ..but the respect is back (mom will be happy) ..so is the belief (in my own way though) :D